Wednesday, August 13, 2025

Shili Shili Y'all!

 Journal entries from Kenya...

7/31/25

Today we woke a little later and went to a breakfast of sausage, pancake with honey, and fruit.  They set up our tables in a different part of the beautiful grounds and we enjoyed eating and chatting about what is behind and what lies ahead.  We talked about how, after Matt and I had gone to bed, the Pettigrew boys had fed a bush baby, with the help of one of Benjamin's sons, who is trying to get them more used to people.  We did some shopping at the tables Benjamin's wives had set up and then laoded up for Shili Shili.  In my car was Matt, Leo, Malcolm, Kate, and Connor.  We stopped off at the shop where we bought shukas a few days ago and many bought more shukas.  Lance also had to buy supplies for camp, which took awhile, as things do.  We waited in the vehicles and a man came up and talked to Leo and Matt, asking for money.  He kept touching Leo's face too, which was awkward.  Paul came and shooed him away.  Joseph, our driver, told me he really liked my watch and said, "Maybe you surprise me?"  I didn't give it to him because it's not very nice but I do use it constantly.  Lance and Tiffany say it's not considered rude in their culture to take advantage of perceived opportunities from a connection with someone who is better off than you.  We saw zebras on the roadside, which is always a reality check to me of "You are actually in Kenya!  Where there are safari animals on the side of the road!" So crazy.  Finally we pulled into the school and were greeting so warmly by the Fergusons, who were super excited to show us our temporary home.  We set up our rooms, which are Kelly and Tiffany with the little girls, the rest of us females, Malcolm and Lance with their sons, and the rest of the males.  There is a big bathroom with 8 stalls- some with a short spigot for bucket baths, one squatty potty, one regular toilet, two showers, and some changing stalls.  The plumbing was all new from the money we sent them.  There is also a "choo" (they say chō) outside, which we are supposed to use during the day so as not to overwork the indoor plumbing.  The school setting is beautiful.  Dry and red dusty, but you can see for miles and see Mt Kilimanjaro today.  There are beautiful little birds and it was a blue sky gorgeous day...the sun here at the equator making it pretty hot compared to the cooler days we have had.  We met the staff, Matt and I took a walk, we ate lunch, we prepared for camp, then the whole team took a long walk.  We saw children carrying water, pretty birds, and a gorgeous sunset.  We took pictures together by a cool tree.  Then we had dinner, a quick meeting, and got ready for bed.  I was happy to unexpectedly have wifi here.  We hadn't had it in Kili Springs and so I hadn't talked to the kids (or warned them I might not be able to contact them) for 3 days.  I was fighting the tears getting their messages.  








8/1/25

Today we woke at 6am after a very restless first night here.  Between people coughing, snoring, and tossing and turning, it was so loud.  And it was so dark that I spent a good 30 minutes in the middle of the night just trying to decide if getting up to go to the bathroom would wake everyone with my phone flashlight.  Then I decided I absolutely must go or I'd never be able to sleep, but I still had to sit on my bed a few minutes psyching myself up for it. It was almost a relief when the Ferguson girls' alarms went off just to be done with the night!  We had a devotion and breakfast and prepared for the grade 3 kids who were coming for a one day camp.  They arrived early and gathered in a classroom, where we had a brief assembly with introductions of the teachers and welcome messages from Headmaster James and Lance.  We had 8 kids in our group with Connor and Naserian Ferguson as my co-leaders and a teacher from the school named Faith as the translator.  The kids didn't seem to understand much English but were pretty easy to corral and very cute.  Some were really shy, but warmed up more by the end of the day.  The girls especially would get very embarrassed and turn away and cover their faces.  We are told that being meek/shy is a valued quality for Maasai females.  We started by making and launching paper rockets, then did the parachute, which they loved, and the Bible Study, which was hard because we wrtoe it for middle school, and with the language barrier, it was tough to tell what they grasped.  We had a great time playing soccer and they really opened up more and showed their personalities then.  That was probably my favorite part of the day.  They loved hand clapping games that I think the twins showed them after lunch and after doing "Avocado" a bazillion times with them, I was exhausted!  We ended with the cultural exchange slot, where we shared things about ourselves and that was sweet, as each child got to tell their favorite food, what animals they have at home, etc.  We walked to the gate to tell them goodbye and then had a meeting and took a long walk with Tipaai, who was having his 30th birthday today.  We hoped to see some kind of wildlife and kept asking any people we saw if they had seen any elephants or giraffes and they'd say "just a little farther", but Tipaii said "We are nomads so we don't really know what they mean by 'a little'.  Eventually it was becoming too close to dark and we had to return.  I enjoyed talking with Tiffany about life in Rwanda and later talking with Tipaai about where he'd like to travel and his wedding a month ago.  He was excited to show photos and shocked we don't do dowries, which are such a big part of their culture.  He said, "So an African man can marry an American woman for very cheap?!?" when we told him the bride's family even pays for the wedding.  We ended with a delicious curry meal and the kids and Lance did a pot-banging parade and song/conga line with a birthday cake for Tipaai, who was very moved and gave a speech, saying how happy he was.  I took a freezing spigot "shower" and went to bed.








8/2/25

I slept so much better, thankfully.  Woke @ 6 for breakfast, then a trek out to Chyulu Hills and Kopje Rocks for rock scrambling.  We were packed into 2 vehicles- ours had our team, minus Pettigrew females, plus Ezra Ferguson.  The young boys were in the back and kept up a pleasant stream of conversation the entire day.  Three of us had to be standing up at all times, which grew tiring by 4 pm.  We had a lovely time climbing up to the top of the rocks and eating a picnic pb&j lunch after the 2 1/2 hour drive to get there (pretty sure Paul said it was 30-45 minutes and we did stop to see animals a few times- giraffes, zebra, hartebeest, gazelle, gerenuks, bustards, but still...I think Kenyan time is different than our time!).  Kelly came around and took our order for kind of jelly, peanut butter, and bread, and the Fergusons made our sandwiches.  We also got to try more new Kenyan snacks.  Up on the rocks we could see for miles and miles and there was not a person in sight- only some animals in the distance. There was a lot of piles of baboon poop and puddles of strong smelling baboon pee on the top.  Tipaai asked me to take a picture of him and Matt, one close and one far.  He loved the result when I showed him on my phone and gave me his number so I could send it to him.  After lunch, we climbed down and walked a little ways to do more climbing on other rocks.  The kids were loving it.  We had to stay in groups for safety from the lions that could be around.  I was nervous when we peed behind a bush because it was so quiet and beside lots of big boulders where something could hide.   I had fun hanging out with Shelby and Liz, chatting, being silly, and enjoying our experience together.  Shelby found the skull of a cow and couldn't stop laughing when she picked it up.  We paused just to enjoy listening to the wind in the tall grass.  After we left the rocks, we went on a lion search.  There had been talk of lion tracking, but we knew by that point that it wasn't going to work out.  We did find lion tracks on our route, which Paul identified, but never saw lions.  We saw other animals- baboons running on a ridge, oryx (Noah said "Eat my horns!" should be our team slogan because these animals kneel down and aim their long sharp horns to impale pouncing lions, which we found so cool.), and a group of 3 hyenas.  We got to watch a baby hyena go into its den, which many thought was the highlight of the day.  We stopped for a snack near the hyena den and immediately several of us go ticks crawling on our pants.  Then the boys found a huge scorpion.  I was thinking, "Hyenas, ticks, and scorpions?! This place is paradise!"  But it was so cool to be able to roam the savanna in our vehicle, not sticking to any road and just looking for cool wildlife. We were all pretty worn out by the end of the day and a little nervous about getting ready for camp Monday.  The one day camp had been really good for helping us see what we'd do different from our plan.  One big thing was to adapt the Bible Study lessons and we knew that would take time, but we only had one more day and it was going to be a full one with church taking most of it.   I did my calisthenics and chatted with Liz, Shelby, and Kelly about the day and other things.  We had dinner, Bible Study, and went back to the dorm for bed.  It's very dark there with just a couple single lightbulbs hanging from the ceiling to light the whole place, and the sun goes down about 6:30 year round, so it makes evenings a little challenging (especially since I didn't bring a headlamp!).  I find it takes me twice as long to do the easy logistical things of getting out clothes, taking a shower, brushing teeth.  I often can't find things or forget to bring my clean water to rinse my toothpaste or bring the wrong bag of toiletries to the bathroom. But it's kinda fun at night when many of us are in the big bathroom together using wifi, brushing teeth, showering, and talking.  It's very communal.  This night in the girls' room, Liz mentioned wanting to put her legs up against the wall to let the fluid drain from her feet.  We were all still swollen from our travels and the long day in the car.  She and Shelby do this a lot at home.  So we figured out how to find a spot on the wall, put down laundry to lay on the cement floor, and put our legs up.  Eventually most of the ladies joined and we got very silly and had many laughs, which the guys probably didn't appreciate, as we were so loud and you hear everything anyway.  It was a fun night.  Other things about camp- outside the dorm, you can walk a a little and get a building that has a big kitchen and beside that, a classroom with desks arranged in a big U where we do all our meals and Bible Study.  Beyond that are more classrooms where we do camp.  Around the yard are trees where beautiful green, parrot-looking lovebirds roost, and other little black and white birds that like to sing.  Some birds roost in our building and you can hear them at night.  I think they are pigeons.  Sometimes they sound like they are bowling.  In the big bathroom there are two doors that have open gates at the top and the wind (it's always windy) blows throw there all day.  We hear all sorts of noises- dogs outside the dorm, bats and mice inside- and people always talk about mysterious lights at night, which Malcolm eventually determined were some kind of spotlights from the farms adjacent to the school I think.  There are huts by the watermelon patches there where people guard the fruit from elephants at night.  One more thing this night- Kate found an embedded tick on the back of her knee and Malcolm, then Matt, had to try to get it out.  The head came off and they couldn't get the rest.  We all gathered in the hall to see.  It was big and hard shelled.  











8-3-25

Today we got to sleep a little later and have breakfast at 8.  I took a cold shower before and we all enjoyed getting ready for church in our new Maasai wrap skirts, jewelry, etc.  We had some time before we had to leave for church and Matt and I talked to the new cook Dan, especially about how he got his branded circles on his face (a Maasai tradition) at age 4 and ran away in between cheeks.  He said he was not having his kids receive the brands and it's not as common anymore, though a good many of the camp kids had them.  We rode in the same cars as yesterday and went to Imbirikani, to Tipaai's church.  It was so nice to hear from their pastor lots of thankfulness that we came not just ot see the animals, but to see them and even flew 19 hours to get there.  He emphasized that- black or white- we are all family in Christ and if we don't see them again, we will see them in heaven.  Seeing Paul's joy and tears during the service as we worshiped together was so precious.  At first they said the sound system wouldn't work and we'd just use our voices and hands to worship, which would be good enough, but sometime after a couple of songs, the sound system came back and there was a Caribbean sounding tune and lots of beats coming from the keyboard as they played the next worship song.  People came down the aisles to dance up front and Paul came over to dance with us.  Malcolm preached a short sermon, then Pastor Gideon gave some commentary, then there were choir performances, Lance preached, more comments, more music and at the end, our group was called up to be introduced by name to the congregation.  Then someone- Paul or maybe Tipaai's brother Jonathon, said, "Now, you dance!".  We didn't have a dance but we did sing "Nothing But the Blood of Jesus" (which, by the way, had been sung nonstop for the last few days, particularly by the little girls) and tried to make it as peppy as we could! I saw a clock on the wall with no hands, which is funny because "Kenya time" isn't on time as we think of it.  We socialized a little after church, then walked to Tipaai's family home for tea.  We met his mom and older brother Jonathon.  Their home was beautiful, with a courtyard and several huts.  They had tea and mandazi set up for us in one hut with a beautiful view and we sat and talked to Tipaai and Jonathon about Jonathon's role as the community leader, how they met their wives, how age sets (with labels) work for Maasai men, how dowries work, etc.  It was so cool.  He asked if we would come for dinner another day and said we could have goat (though at first he said Americans don't like meat but we corrected that notion!).  We met Tipaai's wife and she was very quiet but said she is teacher and she misses her family, as she isn not from nearby.  Tipaai's mom came out and gave Kate a beautiful necklace and hug.  By the time we made it back for lunch it was 3:30.  We ate and then spent the rest of the afternoon adjusting our camp plan.  We had some good laughs planning a chant for our Bible verse.  We worked till dinner, ate, and got ready for bed.  






Tuesday, August 12, 2025

Spectacular Safari

 Journal Entries from Kenya...

7/30/25

We had the most amazing morning on safari.  We got up at 5:15 to gather for tea/coffee at 6 and head out to the Kitenden Conservancy.  Our car was the Novaks, Luceros, and us, with a driver and Benjamin (host/owner of our lodge), who was funny and share lots of cool info on the animals.  Before we began, he encouraged us to enjoy our free African "massage", meaning the bumpy safari ride.  As we left the lodge, we saw a gorgeous view of Mt Kilimanjaro, which is called the "shy mountain", as it is rare that it shows itself.  We had decided the night before to go to the conservancy over the Amboseli National Park because it would be much less touristy and we could go off road to get close to the animals- and boy, did we!  We started off seeing a few giraffes, gazelles, and zebras after a freezing ride in the open air jeep. Then we started seeing elephants.  Throughout the morning, we stopped many times- maybe 4-5- to sit and observe them up close, adjusting our vehicle periodically to get the best shot and get closer, which they mostly let us do.  Benjamin showed us one elephant named Holly.  He said he loves this one and she's so calm as she leads her group.  We loved when we saw an elephant families with a baby or two.  The first and tiniest one we saw was very protected by its family and they trumpeted at us when we got too close.  We were absolutely blown away by this opportunity to be super close to them in the wild.  We loved our picnic breakfast of lemon pancakes and potatoes with other vegetables, bananas, and honey.  The weather warmed up and it was such a beautiful day.  We also saw some ostriches and tiny, beautiful, bright blue birds called superb starlings.  We came back to the lodge for lunch, which was some African-tasting spaghetti, fried potato wedges, delicious greens, fruit salad, chicken legs, and mixed vegetables, plus smoothie-like juice.  After lunch we played Dutch Blitz with almost everyone, which was really fun.  We loaded up for afternoon safari about 4 pm- just our truck because we learned the other one needed a repair.  We got close to Amboseli and pulled over into a clearing overlooking a valley where we could spot lots of animals.  They said to get out and then the driver left us with Benjamin and another guy who had met us close by and was a warden.  We had no idea what was going on and why our driver left and wondered if we should be nervous for our safety.  The warden carried a stick, which we first thought was for protection but he said it was for his level of leadership.  We stayed there quite awhile looking for animals and wondering what the plan was, as it was getting darker and we had hoped to see lions (from our vehicle).  Finally the others arrived and we had snacks and drinks.  We spotted a large group of giraffes nearby.  When we had done some initial picture taking as a group and the giraffes had moved a little off, I noticed Benjamin, Shelby, and Liz walking towards them and they motioned me and Matt over.  They had gotten even closer to the giraffes and eventually the whole team joined us and we were able to quietly walk alongside them as the sun set behind them, which was such a cool experience.  We finished the day with another delicious dinner and enjoyed sharing stories and conversation with our teammates before bed.  











Nairobi and Kimana!!

Journal Entries from Kenya.... 

7/28/25

Today has been a great day in Kenya.  We had a very late night last night.  Our flight landed just before midnight (Kenya time on Sunday, after having left our house at 11 am on Saturday- 6pm Kenya time), but then we had to go through customs and our supply suitcases had been flagged, so we had to wait awhile for Liz, Malcolm, and Matt N to negotiate a tax for all our extra supplies.  We waited with Lance Ferguson and a few drivers and it was sweet to watch a group of very young kids reunite with each other with squeals and hugs.  Then we piled into the vans to head to the Apple Tree apartments.  The Pettigrews are staying in one place, the Ferguson family in another, and the rest of us in another.  It's very nice, with 4 rooms and 4 bathrooms.  We finally went to bed about 2:45am and it was a little hard to fall asleep, but then I slept soundly until we had to get up.  We went to the Pettigrew apartment this morning and looked out their balcony at a family of rhinos (the apartments are right by Kenya National Park), then had a short time of prayer and headed to the giraffe center.  Our drive today was Joseph and he is very fun.  He is a Christian and likes singing praise songs- some English, some not.  He also tried to teach us a song that is very happy and says Hakuna Matata (later found the title- Jambo Bwana).  We kept singing this song as best we could for days afterward.  We had the twins and Ita Ferguson with us, who have become instant best friends and got very loud and silly.  I sat by Tiffany and enjoyed getting to know her.  We got to feed giraffes little pellets at the center and they would have eaten them nonstop all day I think.  We saw some lines of kids on a field trip, sorted by age and walking quietly with their hands behind their backs.  Somewhere on the ride, we saw a bunch of baboons on the side of the road.  We were surprised to find that things are so English in Nairobi- driving on the left side of the road (though the driving habits reminds me of China), all the billboards, menus, etc in English, and all the English-speaking people.  We ate lunch at a very nice restaurant called Tin Roof Cafe where they had the most delicious samosas and I also got a ginger turmeric hot drink called dawa that was good.  There were shops all around and we enjoyed looking and buying a few things.  Then we went to the Maasai market where everyone greeted us and said, "Karibu, sister", "You come in my shop", "I will show you everything", "Not much money", "Show me what you like", etc.  It was a bit overwhelming because there were so many and most had about the same stuff.  We were really tired on the ride back to the apartment.  We had pizza at the Pettigrews and went back to shower, repack, and sleep- though Matt and I ended up waking up for awhile in the night.  I was up from 12-4am, not yet adjusted to the time change.  


7/29/25

We had to get up at 5:15, quickly dress and pack our bags to load into the vans for the train station.  Many of us didn't sleep well and it was dark and chilly, so kind of a quiet ride.  Our vehicle got there first- me, Matt, Connor, Noah, Leo, and Ezra.  We had to go through a pat down security check (boys on the left, girls on the right) and while going through my bag, the lady found my TruBar and asked if it was chocolate.  I told her no, it's peanut butter and jelly flavor and she said, "I try?" so I gave her one.  Then we took our bags from security and had to put the in a line on a platform under this tin shed, while we stood against the wall and waited for dogs to sniff them.  It felt a little like a scene from a book.  Then we went in to the station and waited for our group.  We had yet another security checkpoint and then sat down to wait for the train.  Matt got some coffee for him and a dawa for me.  I enjoyed chatting with Selah while we waited.  We had a bit of a crisis, as we couldn't find one of our supply bags for camp and had no idea where it was left, as the bags were all mixed up between us, with us all taking whatever bag was in front of us.  Tiffany and Lance were trying ot call people and figure it out, but we had to go ahead and get on the train without it.  On the train were lots of school children and a big group of teens from Manchester doing mission work all over Kenya.  We rode along looking for wildlife and saw farm animals, babooms, ostriches, and gazelles.  It was a short 1 1/2 hr trip to Emali and the stop was only about 3 minutes so we had to grab all our stuff and be ready to get off quickly.  Then we met Paul, Tipaai, and one other driver and piled into Land Cruisers to ge tot Kimana.  We had Shelby and Liz in front of us and the twins and Ita behind us, who were very funny, talking about lions mating, singing together, and acting out pretend games.  At one point later in the day, Kelly told them she was asking for a report card form us for their behavior and they were much more subdued after that.  On our ride, we saw more wildlife like zebras out our window.  We stopped in a dusty field area and Tiffany set out a lunch of crackers, chips, cheese, and digs, and we feasted.  We also were so happy to hear that the missing bag was discovered back at the apartment.  We got lots of sand burrs in our clothes, threw rocks at a target in the field, had a "bush wee" as Shelby calls it, and loaded back up to go to the market.  In Kimana there is a market every Tuesday.  We first went to the goat and cattle market.  It was full of clusters of people with their goats and cows huddled (and roped) together, looking at us as we wove our way through.  We looked at a few things like Maasai clubs outside the animal area and then headed to the huge produce and clothing market.  Kate, Tiffany, and Kelly went by motorcycle taxi.  We spent the next hour or two wandering the market, which was very crowded and chaotic, with people called out "Mzungu" (white person) to us or coming up and trying to sell stuff to us.  We looked at the huge piles of "tire shoes" that the Maasai men often wear.  One lady came up to me and asked if I speak French, then asked if I follow the word of the Lord in Deuteronomy where he says a woman isn't to wear a man's clothes (I had on pants).  She also asked Kelly this and Lance told her she should also be following "no wearing mixed fabrics" if she's going to to all the law literally.  Everything moved slowly and we were often waiting on negotiations or who knows what.  Matt bought Maasai swords for the boys and I bought a shuka (the blanket that Maasai people wear).  A little boy came up to me and said, "Give me chocolate".  We got back to the vehicle and said goodbye to the Fergusons, who were going back to Shili Shili, and we went to the Kili Springs safari lodge, where we were greeted with juice and shown our beautiful room/hut.  We got a little settled and went out to have a snack and sit around a big table to talk while the gibbons climbed around in the trees behind us.  Such a magical place and far above our expectations.  We went to dinner ourside at a big table under a sprawling tree and first played UNO Flip with the Pettigrews, Shelby, and Novaks, which was fun.  Then we had a delicious dinner, served by Benjamin and 2 of his 13 sons, cooked by their mom: vegetables, beef in sauce, butternut squash soup, chapati with guacamole.  We did our calisthenics and went to bed.  











    

Tuesday, July 22, 2025

Buckling Up for the Ride!

 Here we are at the end of July and I'm definitely having a "calm before the storm" feeling.  In a few days, we leave for Kenya.  When we return, we will likely move into our new house that week, move Joshua into his new rental house that weekend, start back to work a week after returning (*to a much different work situation than planned), and move Gray to college that next weekend.  All this while trying to recover from our trip, jet lag, etc.  What could go wrong?  I'm anticipating being at the very end of myself by the end of August!!

But for now, there has been a little calm.  The older kids have been working full time-- Joshua enjoying life as a DOT intern, where some days are fun and some days all you do is clean a couple vehicles; Gray getting lots of hours in the hot sun at his landscaping job; Julia adjusting from working half days at the Sportsplex to half Sportsplex and half nanny job for our former neighbor to now full time nanny.  They are gone a lot and busy with work, plus Joshua has been playing in a few lacrosse leagues and they all try to see their friends.  Allie mostly bums around with us as we do projects at the new house or walk the dog or run errands, but she continues to play with the neighbors' grandkids and take tennis and read a lot.  This week she has loved doing an art camp and had made two friends on day 1 that had her so excited to go back.  


This past week, Allie turned 10 and got to have a week of celebrating.  She had wanted to have a big sleepover birthday party, but since we didn't know which house we would be in, and found out a week before her birthday we wouldn't be in the new one, we ended up settling for having two oldy, but goody friends to spend the night.  She also got a family birthday dinner with the Moores, a lunch out with Nanny and Pa, and a lunch out with Matt.  And will get to celebrate with Mimi and GG next week!




The boys got to have some time off from work earlier this month.  They headed down to Florida with Mimi and GrandGene to take part in cousin Graham's shark fishing expedition he'd gotten as a bday gift.  They had such a good time and can't wait to go back.




Gray followed that trip up with promptly turning around to go to dinner and a movie with a friend that night and getting up the next morning to leave Durham at 7:15 for a week of Young Life Camp.

It's his last time going to camp as a camper, but I could see him being a counselor one day.  He loves camp life so much!  I'm hoping he gets some camp-like experiences at college too.

Those of us not on the Florida trip spent July 4th with the Moores, cooking out, watching Maddox's firework show, then heading to the Bulls stadium (or just outside it!) to watch their fireworks.


The big news of this month was Tropical Storm Chantal coming through Orange County and flooding the Eno.  We lost power briefly in Durham and I knew it was raining a lot, but didn't think it was a big deal, even sending Joshua out in it to walk the dog, since he'd neglected to do so earlier in the day when I asked.  We woke the next morning to hear that power was out all over the area and I went to have breakfast with a friend, my former coworker who was back from a year in Mexico, not really knowing the extent of the damage.  Later that morning, I received an email from the director of my school saying that everything was lost due to flooding and the next day I was able to go over and see the shocking state of things myself.



All the books that I'd carefully numbered and put in order in big plastic bins were covered in mud and strewn across the room.  Water had come up to my shoulder height and dumped even heavy furniture over.  All our work over the last 5 years to carefully organize and prepare materials that we need was ruined.  It was such a sharp reminder that I am not in control.  Thankfully, the community has supported our school so well and we are on our way to getting set up for a late and relocated start to the year.  Interestingly, one reason I was strongly considering saying no to Kenya was that I would have to miss the first 1 1/2 weeks of school, which is really tough for new kindergarteners and for the teacher (my new, 1st time teacher).  We now will start after I get back, so I'm so glad I didn't let scheduling keep me from participating in this trip.

Speaking of which, I need to get packing!  My next post will be post-Kenya! I have so many feelings about it, but mostly I'm grateful to go and excited.  I'm going to miss the kids so much and be so exhausted when we get back, but I think it's going to stretch me in a good way and grow my faith a lot and I hope we will be a blessing to those we meet.